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author's note: hitting myself on the head...so the prologue came almost at the end of the fic...hahahaha...yeah, i'm crazy like that...pasensya!!!
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Prologue:
Hwangbo.
She sat alone on her veranda quietly observing the rain’s pitter-patter. She never really imagined that she would be so devastated and pained. She hated those I-told-you-so moments, and she was done pretending she was not hurt by Hyunjoong’s sudden disappearance. She took a deep breath and exhaled with a loud sigh. It’s final. She has decided. She was taking Song Euni’s advice to just move on and pretend it never happened. It was clearly not meant to be anyway. She knew she should not have expected too much from a young idol, but she blindly jumped off the cliff to experience what seemed to be the greatest and death-defying free fall of her life.
They perfectly fit each other, and boy, was she happy to be with him. Just receiving a smiley text message from him sent butterflies to her stomach. And when he suddenly disappeared and left her mid-air, she got confused. Many questions popped inside her brain. In the end, she started blaming herself. Maybe she was too uptight. Maybe she was too clingy. Maybe she was choking him. Maybe he just was not into her. So many theories, not one was ever confirmed.
She smirked just thinking about it now. Her head ached when she thought about it, and her heart winced in pain when she was reminded of him.
It was a good thing she has not seen him since, who knows what riot it would have done on her poor nerves to see Kim Hyunjoong again.
Hyunjoong.
He crashed on Jaejoong’s couch that night. He had been avoiding his members’ questions about Hwangbo. He knew he was at fault and deserves to be grilled, but not now, he thought. Now, he was tired, exhausted, half dead.
He closed his eyes. At first, there was only darkness, but after a few seconds, a face surfaced. A face of an angel, his angel. She was the angel he left high and dry. Hwangbo’s smile always seemed to ease the pressure, the tension he was feeling, but he suddenly felt fear. She was someone he needed and wanted at the same time. Time passed between them, the closer he got to know her the deeper he plunged. He felt something for her, but he was unsure. His fear rose above his feelings for her. It was something he never felt before. He used to be okay being independent, but now that he was with her, everything depended on her. It seemed like his whole world revolved around her. And, that was something he was not used to, something he was not familiar with.
Jaejoong threw a pillow that landed on Hyunjoong’s face, knocking off his breathing for a second.
“Yah!! What was that for??”, SS501’s leader shouted.
“That was for Hwangbo Noona!!”, his friend answered, “This one’s for being a jerk”, he added throwing another pillow on his direction.
This time Hyunjoong docked and successfully avoided the pillow. He fell silent.
“She asked me about you earlier, and I had to lie for you, d.ammi.t! I had to lie for you! I had to lie to Hwangbo Noona that you were busy!!! The other day, I said you were in Japan…”, Jaejoong said as he sat beside his friend.
“Dude, she was devastated. She walked out of the dressing room like she was about to cry. Hyunjoong, the rest of South Korea’s Showbiz Industry was there!! They saw the expression on her face. How long are you gonna do this to her, huh?”, Jaejoong stood up and walked to his bedroom. “You better sort things out soon, Hyunjoong.”
The silence was deafening when Hyunjoong was left alone. Thoughts swarmed his head. He should not have left her like that, but he could not undo what he did. His indecision and fear of the unknown and what’s to come got the best of him.
He closed his eyes again feeling his pain and realized that her pain must have been double or triple even. But his fear was greater, far greater than he had imagined. He let his fear rule over his very being.
And, so both their heartaches continue.
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